This Is My Life Now

I used to do my "random acts of camera roll" posts whenever I felt like I was getting behind in my blogging and needed a quick way to catch up. Turns out, that's my writing style now - just cram it all in whenever I can. (That's what he said...)

Anyway, let me catch you up by regaling the tales of a perfectly average person.

It was take-your-doggy-to-dinner-night the other night at Habit Burger.
 I am ashamed to admit that it has taken me until my mid(ish) 30's to finally start watching friends. I wish I could go back in time and tell myself to start a long time ago. I'm in love. And I have watched this over and over and over again...
 Winter decided to show up, finally! The girls played outside last weekend for almost the whole day until they were frozen enough they needed a bath to warm up. It's pretty and all, and fun to watch from our living room window, but I'm kind of over it now. Too soon?
 I'm kicking myself for not taking advantage of the amazing warm weather we were having and running outside more. Now that it's cold and icy again, I have to use this thing.
Which means this quote is as true as it was back in 300 B.C. when he said it. (*wink*)
I acquired some new running shoes though! I've been wanting to try Altra's for years but have always been put off by how they look. They certainly aren't the prettiest shoe. They're kind of like the ugly step-sister who turns out to be super awesome. I decided since I needed new trail running shoes (you know, since its superb trail running season *eye roll*) that I would give Altra's a try for trails. I bought them online without even trying them on... stupid. I don't recommend that. I lucked out though and they fit perfectly and I am kind of obsessed with them.
I got the Lone Peak's and so far they have knocked my expectations out of the park! I feel like it's not fair to say that because they were delivered on the day it snowed a ton, so they haven't actually been used on a trail yet. They took their maiden voyage on the treadmill. And I quickly learned I need socks with high backs when I wear them.
 Disregard the cankles. But they grip the ground like a DREAM!! I cannot wait until spring when they can see some serious trail action. I really wanna try their road shoes now.

With snow, also comes bored children. I let the girls pull out their necklace and bracelet making kit the other day. They were super silent for a good 30-40 minutes while they concentrated on what they were working on. 
I thought I had just discovered the secret to winter parenting when Brynlie got super upset about something, chucked her stuffed animal right into the bead tray, and sent them flying literally all over the living room. The plus side? They didn't have a reason to be bored for the next hour or so while they cleaned them up. Brynlie scavenged and Kennedy sorted them back into groups. Apparently she inherited my OCD because I'm pretty sure I saw her eye twitch when I suggested we just put them all in a bag mixed together. Even though she didn't make the mess, she wanted to sort them; and she spent the rest of the night doing it. Shes incredible.

She's also been asking me for more chores. Yes, folks, MORE CHORES. I'm not one to squash her dreams. I figured I would start small... ease into it so she doesn't realize it's terrible work... kind of like boiling a frog. So far the pot is still warm with excitement. She's now in charge of dusting.
And I have to tell ya, she did an amazing job. I should have done this sooner. The story of my life.
I cut this cuties hair the other day. I had no idea what I was doing, but it turned out pretty cute! *cute haircut not pictured*.
Little Logan turned 5 months old last week!!
He's still super happy and good, and I can't stop kissing his fat cheeks.
I'm convinced he's the laziest baby on the planet. He won't roll over or stand on his legs or do anything but sit and smile.
And he saves his best smiles for Kennedy.
And those freaking, dreamy eyes!! I can't even stand it!! 
We have been starting solids, and he's pretty unsure about the whole thing. 
 But doesn't complain.
And we got him an Otteroo for the bath and when we decide to go swimming. He loved it!!

We also got a jumper from someone getting rid of one to help encourage him to use his legs
No luck so far.
But again, no complaining.
Prepare yourself for cuteness overload in 5...4...3...2...1...
Ok, you're probably not as obsessed with those 3 as I am. But they sure are adorbs.

Other fun things:
1. I've been finding time to study fitness books again. That makes me happy.
2. The sunrise the other morning was pretty cool. That also makes me happy.
3. Brynlie stealing my shoes does not make me happy.
4. Baby-feet-back-rubs = happy.
5. Cory has an incredible amount of patience cause he let the girls help make their own mac and cheese tonight for dinner. Cory cooking + him teaching them skills they'll use in college = happy.
And last but not least... we switched dentist recently (for the kids) to someone closer to our new house. Their office is incredible!! Again, I should have switched sooner. Their waiting room is bomb!
The kids are highly entertained from start to finish. B is watching Beauty and the Beast while getting her teeth cleaned.
Kennedy's bottom two teeth have been loose for a while now but would not fall out. The dentist took care of that for us! And I learned it is not free to have the dentist pull teeth so... lesson learned.
But the Tooth Fairy made her first visit to our house and Kennedy asked to go to bed at 6:00 cause she was so excited for her to come. By the way, what does the Tooth Fairy do with the teeth once she swaps them for cash? Asking for a friend. Thanks in advance.

And lastly I will leave you with this sweet picture of Brynlie and her best friend at work.

 Ya'll come back now, ya hear?!


Hump Day Humbug

Hello again, friends! 

I had my appointment with the mental health doctor yesterday. I really liked her. After asking me a billion questions (which I’m glad she did) we concluded to try me on a full-time anxiety medication and see if it’ll help. This is on top of what I’m already taking for depression. I’m hopeful. But we won’t know if it’s working fully for a few weeks yet. It felt so good to talk to someone and not feel like there was something wrong with me. I didn’t feel embarrassed about my situation like I have felt telling other doctors. It was like she just knew. So my fingers (and toes) are crossed that in a couple more weeks the anxiety will be under control and I can start feeling normal about life again. Prayers are appreciated. 

One thing that has significantly helped my mood is this insane weather! Can you believe it?! It’s been so nice out! I understand this doesn’t bode well for our state in the future, but mid 50’s in January in Utah is so rare I almost don’t care. Almost. 

I’ve been dying to get outside and I recently discovered we have access to the Bonneville Shoreline Trail just seconds from our house. That’s going to make trail-runner-Megan very happy in the somewhat near future. There’s no shade, so it’ll have to be a spring or fall thing I think. But it’ll be great.

In the meantime we drove the trail twice in one day. The first time we just explored a bit. 

The second time we took our neighbor along and turned it into a fun little ride for the kids. We even stopped and hiked a small portion of a hiking trail that starts just off the road. No one had coats on. In fact, I was in a t-shirt. There were so many other people out enjoying the day. It felt so good to be out doing fun stuff again. 

Logan didn’t appreciate it when I took the bumps kinda fast, but who cares. He’s a Hunter. He’s gotta get used to adventure. 

I also finally got him a Sunday outfit. It was $6 at Target and he looks pretty freaking dashing in it, if I do say so myself. If it wasn’t for Target clearance he would still be sporting PJ’s for his Sunday best. 

You may have seen people posting their Google Arts & Culture selfies recently. Its kind of blown up social media. It’s an app where you take a picture of yourself and they match you up with a famous painting. I finally got curious enough to try it. 

Nailed it. 

Another mood booster I got to experience this week: RUNNING!! 

Every time I sit down and plan out times to run on my calendar, someone gets sick and it doesn’t work out. But so far, this week has allowed me to run once. I went to the gym early and lifted weights, then ran 3 miles; 1.5 miles uphill and then 1.5 miles back down. 

I wasn’t expecting any amazing times so I knew it would be a slow run; especially with half of it being straight uphill. But I have to admit I was super bummed with my pace coming back down. I used to run this route back in the day much quicker - like 2-3 minutes per mile faster. I kept getting frustrated each time I would look at my watch and see the pace. I was working so hard and the pace felt so challenging. But I kept reminding myself that it’s been over a year since I’ve been able to run. Like really run. I have a long way to go. I can’t just pick up where I left off. I had a freaking baby! But I kept promising myself I’ll get there. Someday, I’ll be strong again. And running this hilly and challenging route was one step closer to getting there by building strength. I can do hard things. 

What does it say about my life when I think organizing our junk drawer is a cool enough occurrence that it warrants a picture? And it makes it into my blog post?

No one warns you that being an adult consists of monumentally stupid things like this ALL THE TIME. And you’re too tired to care whether it’s cool or not. I would like to thank caffeine for the energy for this adulthood moment. The drawer will stay clean for about 3 days, at which point it’ll be vomiting papers and refusing to shut all the way again. 

Tomorrow I have some fun things planned and I hope they all pan out. I’ll do my best to take pictures and keep the positivity going on my life. Stay tuned. 


Crazy Town

Greetings from Crazy-Town, USA!

Oh my gosh, you guys, I am riding quite the roller coaster and I am hating every second of it. It's completely fascinating and irritating to me that the chemical makeup of my brain and how I function can completely change just because I had a baby. And change so dramatically! I've never experienced anxiety like this before. Just when I think I'm doing much better and am in the clear, something happens that spikes my anxiety and depression again. And it's not always the same thing, so I never know what to expect. I usually struggle when Cory is working and that shouldn't be the case. I'm seeing a mental health nurse practitioner on Tuesday to talk medication options because I need to find a solution to this ASAP. Postpartum mental illness is no joke!!


So aside from the fact that I feel like a different person every other week, things are going ok. Really, overall, they are.

We're busting our butts this year to help Kennedy get caught up on grade level. It's been really hard on her to be one of the youngest in the grade. She's made huge improvements this year, but still has a ways to go. So we're doing everything we can think of to help.
 Kennedy really is a gem. She has the biggest heart of anyone I know. I never thought my own kids would be an example to me of how I should be living, but she is. Someday, Brynlie and Logan will realize how lucky they are to have her watching out for them.
 She's so dang helpful and nurturing.

 Little Dude is doing well. He is definitely our laziest baby. He just barely rolled from his stomach to his back this past week or so and still hasn't rolled the other way. He WILL NOT stand on his legs, and he grabs things but still won't bring them to his mouth. He's still terrible at keeping a binky in. I want to just get rid of it but it puts him to sleep so fast... I don't know. I guess we will just keep hoping that he either figures it out or learns to suck his thumb instead hahaha.
 It was my turn to catch a cold this past week as well. Oh, how I hate winter. But I'm finally feeling better so that's been really helpful.
 Just some buddies, hanging out.

Kennedy made me a book about "The Christmas With a Big Moon and Snowman." She wrote and illustrated the whole thing, by herself.
 My spicy little Boo. She's such a complex person, but I love everything about her. I can't really put into words what it is I love about her so much. She can be so freaking hilarious when she's in the right mood. She can be down right rotten, then turns around the next second and can melt your heart.
 Like when she cuddles with me when I'm sick.
 We broke out some Candy Land the other night. The girls had a blast playing with Daddy! Somehow, when they play with him, they don't throw fits if they don't win. They were just loving the experience.
 We all also played Go Fish after this. I had to team up with B since she didn't quite know how to read the cards, but she was a sneaky little thief and kept stealing cards from Cory's match pile when no one was looking.
 We went to Get Air last week with our neighborhood playgroup. They have toddler time on Tuesdays and Thursdays from 10-12. The little ones have free reign of the complex and can play on anything they want. Brynlie had the time of her life!!

 I was also so touched because I was stuck sitting on one of the couches holding a sleeping Logan, but all the other moms stepped up and helped her when she needed it and played with her without even being asked ... I'm telling you, the people I live by are A-M-A-Z-I-N-G!!
 We will be going back because this is right up Kennedy's isle and she was in school.

Those freaking lashes, though.

I keep telling myself I'll figure life out soon. And I will someday, I'm sure. I'm just going to be a hot mess until then. So if you love to watch people self-destruct, keep coming back and reading my blog *winky face*