6.26.2017

9 Years

Today was our 9 year wedding anniversary!! 
 
Cory had to work and I just about killed myself trying to clean our basement and go through boxes and boxes of crap. So no celebrating happened. But hopefully we will this weekend. 


I cannot express the love I have for this man. I am one lucky girl. We've had our challenges in our life together, but I feel like we've held it together really well and have only grown stronger as our lives have evolved. 


He treats me like a goddess when I'm pregnant. Sometimes I feel silly but I am carrying his offspring, so I guess it's fair haha. 


He is so patient and selfless. He's always putting me and the girls first and I don't deserve it almost all of the time. He is also, in my opinion, the best father around. I rarely have to ask him for help with anything and he takes every chance he can get to spend time with the girls. I can't wait to see what he does with a boy. 


He is such a good, honest person through and through and I am grateful, every single day, that I get to have him as my eternal companion. 


Happy 9 years to us! Here's to eternity! 




6.25.2017

Island Park / Yellowstone Take 2

I noticed this morning that for some reason my whole blog post didn't upload. What the?? So let me continue on... 


Playing with Daddy on the playground 
 

 
I LOVE this picture!!
 

 
 For some reason Brynlie has been pretty timid when it comes to slides. I think she's been on a few big ones recently that have kind of scared her. But she worked up the courage to do this one on her own and had to show everyone how brave she was. 
 
Once everyone was ready we went back into the park again. We made a bunch of stops at different things. First was a smaller waterfall (I can't remember the names of most things..)
 
And some rocks to play on 
 

 
Kennedy had her binoculars around her neck almost the whole trip. Any time we were in the car those were glued to her eyes so she could scope out some bears. They also offered a lot of fun with Grandpa. He's so great with them. 
 
Our next stop was an even bigger waterfall where we got to stand right at the top of it. Watching that water roar past and over the edge was 1) terrifying with children but 2) so amazing! 
 
Then we had a quick stop for lunch where getting the girls to eat was almost impossible with cool trees to climb on. 
 
Then we saw the Grand Canyon of Yellowstone which was much more breathtaking than the pictures show. 
 

 

 
Can you guess who was grumpy?
 
After that we stopped at some super stinky bubbling pools and mud pits. 
 
Kennedy got a massive sliver from the wood railing which we weren't able to get out fully. 
 
There was a really cool thing called the Dragons Mouth or something like that. It kept steaming and the gases inside the cave sounded just like a dragon breathing fire. Kennedy was 100% sure there was a dragon inside and would not leave until it came out, no matter how many times we told her there wasn't one. 
 
Our last and farthest stop was Fishing Bridge. I was pretty tired at this point and sat down to rest while everyone else walked the bridge. I was a bump on a log... haha, get it? Ok, lame joke. 
 
That night around the fire Brynlie FINALLY perked up and started to have some fun! Don't worry, Cory put a stop to the tummy flashing, in case you can't tell by the look on his face. 
 
The next morning while we were trying to pack up Grandma tried to teach Brynlie how to ride Kennedys old bike. 
 
She doesn't have it yet. She gets really upset really fast so we will have to work on it when we have more time and more patience. 


We really had a great time. It was the first trip in a long time where everyone from Cory's family was able to come and you could tell they were all just so happy about it. I wish so bad I wasn't pregnant so we could do more fun things this summer. But there is a season for everything I suppose. Two more months about. 


See you soon. 

6.24.2017

Island Park / Yellowstone

The past five days we got the opportunity to go camping with Cory's side of the family in Island Park. His parents reserved a time share and invited the whole family to come up and make that our summer trip together. 


I'll admit I was less than enthused at first. My brain and "camping spirit" really wanted to go. I wanted to get away desperately and spend some time with family. But camping with kids is tiring enough, not to mention when you're almost 7 months pregnant. I tried to talk Cory out of all the trips we had planned this year but this one he just wouldn't budge on. And I'm glad he didn't. I can't even tell you how much we needed this time away. There was no stressing out, no worrying... it was perfect! 


Don't get me wrong, it was EXHAUSTING! I lost my crap a couple times. But it was also an amazing trip. The weather was perfect and the scenery was gorgeous. The only thing that didn't go as smoothly as it usually does when we camp was the kids. Especially Brynlie. I don't know what her issue was this time, but she was extremely difficult. TONS of whining!! Granted, she was really tired the whole time. The sun came up at 5:00am and it didn't go down until 10:30, so the kids got a lot less sleep than they're used to. 


The drive up took longer than we expected thanks to tons of construction in Idaho. Once we passed Rexburg we drove right into a CRAZY storm!! It rained so hard we thought it might break the windshield. And there was so much lightening the thunder was a constant rumble which was super cool. I love a good storm. It stopped just as we pulled into the campground which was super helpful since we needed to set up our trailer. 


After we got settled we decided to surprise Kennedy with her birthday present a little early since it was the perfect place to ride a bike and we just couldn't wait. She was over the moon!! Look at that face!
 
She took off super fast and never stopped riding. And bonus, she didn't notice that it wasn't the exact bike she wanted from the store! Parental win!! That helmet... I love it. 
 
Next step is teaching her to ride without training wheels. Yet another thing that fell by the wayside the last 18 months of our life cause of the house...


That night one of my worst nightmares happened. While trying to get to her chair around the fire, Brynlie tripped over the cooking grate that lifts out and fell into the fire! I saw her trip, almost like slow motion, and my instant instinct was to get up and catch her. My body was trying to move before I realized my brain had told it to do so. But I was in a camping chair and I'm pregnant so getting to her quickly wasn't happening. I screamed "grab her!!", desperately trying  to get up, just as I watched the left half of her body land in the fire, high centering herself on the hot fire ring. I watched her left hand/arm land on hot, flaming coals. I can't even explain how I felt in that moment. At the same time Cory got to her as well as our niece and they pulled her out quickly. She started SCREAMING and I finally got up and got to her, certain we were heading to the emergency room. 


We tried to calm her down and started looking her over to see how badly she was burned. I grabbed her left hand and just stared at it; there wasn't a single burn on it. No clothes caught on fire. No hair was singed. Her skin wasn't even red. We continued to examine her and found one tiny little burn on a finger on her right hand. I don't even know how it happened since I wasn't watching that part of her. 
 
I felt kind of numb as I held her and waited for my heart rate to come back down and completely in awe that she wasn't hurt. I know I saw her touch the coals. It was a total miracle. 100%. My faith has been struggling a lot lately as we've been going through a pretty tough trial. I've felt like my prayers are being ignored and I was starting to question if there really was anyone who cared about me. As I said my prayers that night, all the emotions came out and I just sobbed and sobbed in total gratitude. It was what I needed to know that there is someone watching out for us and I will forever be grateful that He helped B come out totally fine. It was amazing. 


The next day we headed into the park to see Old Faithful. It took us three hours to get there thanks to a huge traffic jam because of buffalo... (eye roll) and it was pretty darn busy 
 
But we found a good spot and didn't have to wait too long for the eruption. 
 
And the girls thought it was super cool!!
 
We spent a long time walking around the lodges and getting ice cream. Then we headed back to camp and had dinner and more campfire. 


The third day we had an earlier start. We went to the Grizzly and Wolf exhibit in West Yellowstone. 
 
We had to get there early because we wanted to sign Kennedy up for a kids program where she got to hide food for the bears, and we needed to get there before the cut off time. We got her signed up and watched some of the grizzlies and wolves while we waited for the program to start. 
 
The wolves were Brynlie's favorite. 
 
The it was time for Kennedys program to start. The ranger taught them all about how to act if they encounter a bear and how to use bear spray. 
 
Then they got to take food into the exhibit and help hide it so the bears could try to find it. I have way too many pictures of this but she was having so much fun I couldn't stand how adorable it was. 
 

   
She came back just beaming!! Then they let some different bears out and we watched them dig in the rocks to find the food. It was definitely the highlight for me watching her have such a great time. 


Once we were done there we headed to The Gusher for lunch. My sister worked there one summer 18 years ago, and I told everyone we should go because it was good. 
 
But then it occurred to me that was 18 years ago... so I was nervous it wasn't going to be good. But, it was. The pizza was delicious!! Phew!


After lunch we walked around West Yellowstone and did some "shopping", which really consisted of the girls touching everything and asking to buy every object they could see and then getting upset when we said no. We did find them some hats though. Typical Brynlie picture. No smiles. 
 
Once Kennedy tried this hat on I absolutely could not say no. Good thing it was cheap. 
 
Side note: the second we got home she threw off her shoes and put her cowgirl boots on. Adorable! 


After shopping we headed back to the Bear and Wolf place because they were letting out their biggest grizzly and we wanted to see it. It was over 900lbs and totally massive!! You can't tell at all in this picture, but he was gigantic! 
 
And then we took a ton more photos. 
 

    
Day 4 started out at Grandma and Grandpa's condo while we waited for everyone to get ready. The girls got to play on the playground and we finally got to see Brynlie enjoy herself! Grandpa took a turn pushing them on the swings. 
 
Then Daddy joined the fun and smiles really came out! 





6.16.2017

Random Acts of Camera Roll

Our family has been under an intense amount of stress the last couple weeks. Everyone is alive and healthy, so don't worry, but life has been pretty hard. Whenever I get really stressed like this, I kind of sink into my lonely little comfort zone and block out the world, because I literally can't handle any more on my plate. In fact the other day I was feeling so overwhelmed I actually started having contractions and got pretty sick to my stomach. That scared me a bit, so I've been taking it easy and trying not to worry about things or put too much on my plate each day. The last thing we need is a premmie baby with an extended NICU stay. 
Although if we could make it happen in a healthy way, I would have this baby out STAT! Kennedy is so ready to meet her brother! 

We were watching something on my phone together, but now I can't remember what. My discomfort level keeps growing, but I'm trying to keep pushing through. This is my last time. This is my last time. This is my last time. I can do this. 


I think Kennedy knows I'm having a hard time because she has been extra helpful and kind. And if you know how sweet she is normally, that's almost a nauseating level haha. Brynlie stole her spot on the couch and instead of fighting over it, she got them both blankets and moved to the other side so they both could lay down. I literally cried. 
 
Brynlie came out of her room the other day saying she wanted to show me her baby. I fully expected to see her carrying one of her dolls... but this was an adorable surprise. 
 
We had a brief cool spell of weather which I LOVED, and it didn't stop the girls from being outside. They took their lunch outside and had a picnic in Grandma's backyard. 
 
Our backyard is a disaster. Like, DISASTER! It's going to take an army to get all the weeds cleaned up, so we're putting that off until next spring. And hopefully we can get some garden boxes going. Eek!!! So excited to grow fresh veggies! Anyway, we have been working hard this week getting our front yard looking presentable. After several days of weed pulling and 22 bags of mulch later (the flowerbeds out there are HUGE) it looks pretty awesome. I think the girls are sad our trips to the garden department at Lowe's are at an end for now. Daddy makes it such a thrill and doesn't keep snapping at them like Mommy does. 
 
My Mom wanted to make a quilt for Logan and has started working on it. I love it so much already! This may shock you, but we're going with a Jeep theme for the nursery, so I think she nailed the fabric. 
 
Kennedy has a birthday coming up. She's wanted (and really needs) a bigger bike. We went looking at Walmart the other day and she didn't even bother to look at a single girly bike. She zoomed right to a bright green bike with orange flames on the frame because it looked super, super fast and was her favorite color. She screamed up and down the isles on that thing and wants that exact bike. I went back to get it the other day... it's gone. It was last years model and the ones they have now are blue and orange. After much deliberation, I decided to get a different green one and I'll just get flame stickers to put on it. She will notice though, and I'm so bummed I couldn't find the exact bike she wants, but oh well. Hopefully she will love this one, too. 


Since she'll be zipping around on a boys bike, I went to the helmet section to pick out a girly helmet for her. All the girl helmets her size (that weren't Disney or Paw Patrol) were gone except this one, which she obviously hates
 
I gave it to her early since she's been cruising on a toddler bike with no helmet for a while now (safety first! Haha) so it was time to get her protected. She didn't take it off all day and had to show every person who walked by our house, and we get a lot of walkers every day. She freaking loves it. 
 
She also freaking loves egg drop soup, so she needed a straw to get every last drop. 
 
Today we got to go swimming with Daddy. It was HEAVEN! Cory and Kennedy had a total blast together doing all kinds of stunts onto, and off the tube. 
 

 
I floated around and just relaxed which was so, so nice. I can't even explain all the good feels we had today being together and just enjoying the moment. It was therapy. Brynlie was more timid with the pool today, probably cause she couldn't touch the bottom, so she was in and out, but still had tons of fun. Her hair... haha I love it. 
 
After hours of swimming, we were all pretty tuckered out. B came home and crashed on the couch and was snoring up a storm! She is such a sweet little thing. 
 
We also checked out the Bountiful Car Show for a bit and then came home and crashed. We played hard today! 


Even though life is hard for now, and the light at the end of the tunnel may not be visible yet, I'm trying really hard to count my blessings. I suck at that. I do go to bed every night and literally cry over how thankful I am for Cory and my girls. I'm also grateful to be having a sweet little boy, even though getting him here sucks and has definitely been adding to the difficulty of life. So I have no trouble recognizing that my amazing family is most important and they are what makes me happy. But I need to take the time to realize all my other blessings as well and it's something I'm working on. I do have a lot to be thankful for and happy about and not everyone can say that. Bare with me as I learn to focus on the positive instead of letting the negative trials swallow me whole. 


See you soon!