So yeah, I haven't been handling things well and I haven't felt like myself in a really long time. I also haven't opened up about how much I'm struggling with anyone but Cory because I understand there are way worse problems in life and I am a complete and total wimp. But, today, by what can only be total inspiration our fast and testimony meeting was based solely on trials and how to get through them. It was humbling to be reminded that I'm not the only one suffering and learning through this crazy life. And to hear the testimonies about faith and patience also helped remind me of my own testimony that the Lord knows what He's doing. I've REALLY struggled with why we were told to buy the house we did when it's been a huge financial burden. But today I resolved to have faith. I love our house and someday when this whole nightmare is over and we are finally living there, I think we will be very happy. And hopefully the Lord helps provide a way for us to get it finished because I am freaking out a tad.
I really needed to hear what I did in church today. I know I need to have more faith, so that's what I'm going to work on from now on. Hopefully it'll help lighten my mood. I hate feeling like this. I truly do. I want to be me again.
Our lives have been super boring lately because we spend our mornings with school/gym time/work/errands which really isn't that exciting. It has forced me to be better with meal prepping though since we basically live in the car for 4-5 hours every day. So I guess that's a perk. Now if I could just keep the control going after we get home...
Kennedy is LOVING school which makes me super happy. I was having so much anxiety for her for some reason. It's only been a full week and her whole attitude has changed so much (for the better) and she's much more willing to listen and work with me on letters and sounds. Friday she came home with a toy lizard that she got to pick from the treasure box for being so good. As a previous teacher, that made me unbelievably proud!! It's the little things, right? Go Kennedy! Cory and I have been getting emotional dropping her off in the mornings watching her run inside with a humongous smile on her face, with her gigantic, hideous backpack that goes to the back of her knees bouncing back and forth, because we can't believe how big she's getting. She's growing up way too fast. Maybe by the end of the year she'll grow into her backpack?
I'm also grateful I have a job that's so flexible, I can take my kids to, and where I can earn a little extra money for our family. It really isn't much, but it does help. Especially with this whole stupid house stuff.
The house has also taught me what's important in life, as weird as that sounds. I feel like for a while there I was caught up in wanting "things" and now I've been forced to prioritize and remember what really matters most to me and my family. "Things" won't make us happy. Being together and providing for our children will.
I didn't mean for this post to turn into a sappy one, but since it has, let's keep the ball rolling...
I'm also so freaking grateful for wonderful friends.
And thank heavens for IKEA, because without it we wouldn't be able to afford furniture for our house.
Well, I think that's it for today. Enjoy the rest of your Labor Day weekend, everyone!