Where We're Currently At

Pregnancy update for y'all:

I've done trimester updates this time around so I figured I would finish off with this third trimester. I still have 3 weeks to go but whatever. If something new develops you probably don't need to know about it.

I have been very tired still. I basically need 9 hours of sleep a night to feel normal.

Loving the Lortab. I don't want to know where I would be right now without it. Still in lots of pain without it. Almost there though.

Heartburn has gotten to the extreme stage. I'm taking a zantac twice a day and eating Tums I swear, every hour. It's killing my sleep, too.

I've developed the same digestive problems I had with Kennedy. At least it's only been the last 2 months and not the whole pregnancy. But it isn't fun. There is definitely no room left in my body.

My bikini wearing days I fear are at an end... I think I'm developing my first stretch marks. Please picture the saddest crying-face-emoticon you have ever seen. I actually never wore anything stomach revealing last season, it was always a modest swimsuit because I want to set a good example for Kennedy, but I loved knowing I could have worn one if I wanted. Sigh.... oh well.

Swelling, Swelling, Swelling. It hasn't reached the tragic level it was with Kennedy, yet, but there are some days I feel like I need the fluid pumped out of me. It's gross.

I think I have pregnancy acne now, too. Could l get less attractive? I actually don't know if it's the pregnancy or the amount of stress I've been under lately but I've been breaking out bad. Thank heavens my proactiv has kept it under control and has helped fight it quickly, but I have a new zit every day. It's extremely irritating.

This baby is extremely strong and she does not hesitate to let me know that. She is constantly moving and kicking and boxing on my bladder. I pee every 40 minutes most days because she gets going on it and it hurts!!! She also hates when things are resting on or against my belly and will push and kick where the pressure is until I move the object. Usually it's my arms. I yell at my stomach a lot. I'm already off to a good parenting start with this one.

She's named. It's not a secret but I still don't want to announce it until she's born.

I'm getting nervous for delivery. I had forgotten how awful the hospital can be and how much the first few days of recovery suck. But at least I'm prepared for it this time. I'm just ready to get this thing out.


Look Who Decided to Blog!

I promise my lack of blogging hasn't only been because of laziness. My phone won't publish any posts I write with pictures. So I'll forget that, spend all this time writing a post, try and publish it, and then realize it won't work and I'll have to rewrite the whole thing again on my kindle if I want to publish it, which I never have the energy to do. Plus my stupid phone won't save it to the internet server so I can't just log on and publish it elsewhere. To say I'm missing my iPhone is an understatement.

Alright, so here I am rewriting another post for y'all. I have some updates for you and some pictures even. Go me.

This is the only belly picture I'm approving for the blog and it was taken a couple weeks ago, but that's ok. It was almost 33 weeks.
I was starting to feel less fat than I was with Kennedy but with the recent swelling I've had that is no longer the case.

I had my 34 week appointment yesterday and we scheduled a tentative induction date for May 22. There's still so much in the air though that I can see that changing. My blood pressure was high again, he won't start checking me until 36 weeks, etc. And who knows, maybe my prayers will be answered and she will come earlier on her own haha. Ok, that won't happen. I will kill someone if he starts checking me and I'm not dilating. I need this baby out of me! May 22 is about 10 days early which is amazing, but Cory has to work Memorial Day which is 4 days after that so it isn't ideal. He could get it off but I'm making him work because holiday pay is too much to miss out on. So whatever happens we'll make it work.

To add to the craziness our renters are expecting their house to be done the end of May which means we can move home around the first of June. I'm so excited to move home but also terrified because I have no idea how I'm going to pack and move and unpack with a 2 week old baby. I won't even be healed by then. So it'll be an adventure and probably a humbling lesson for me in learning to lean on people and not do everything myself.

I've also gotten a lot of questions about speech therapy. Kennedy starts next week. Finally. But she only comes once a month and only does it until she turns 3, so I don't know how helpful 3 visits will be at this point. But there is a group therapy class offered 3 times a month that the therapist can recommend for her instead of one on one. We may be interested in that since she will get more services out of it. We'll have to wait and see how the first session goes. In June she will be assessed to see if she qualifies for preschool so if she does, the speech will continue through that when school starts. We shall see.

And lastly, we had a wonderful Easter weekend. Cory had the weekend off so we spent lots of quality time together as a family. The weather was fabulous, too. Saturday we went with my mom to Temple Square to see all the gorgeous flowers. Kennedy wore herself out running around pretending to be Elsa, making frozen stairs and running up them singing "Let It Go" at the top of her lungs everywhere we went. It was freaking adorable. I could watch her play pretend all day long. We had a great time enjoying the flowers and sunshine.

Sunday we went to church and we actually got Kennedy an Easter dress this year. She was so excited to wear it!! She looked freaking adorable but we only stayed for sacrament meeting because I can't sit for 3 hours anymore and there's a ton of kids in our neighborhood with RSV and I didn't want to risk nursery. I felt bad because she really wanted to go. But it's ok. I tried to get a picture of her at home and this was the smile she gave me haha
Then I tried a picture of her candidly and this is the best I got
Hello blurry. Anyway, after church we went to spend time with Cory's side of our family and Hillary was able to get this heart-stoppingly adorable picture of her with the giant dog Hillary got her
We had fun eating lunch and playing games. Kennedy always gets so spoiled by them. I love it.

Then we had dinner and an egg hunt with my side of the family. Kennedy was really into it this year. It made it even more fun. She's quite the little egg-hunter.

So that was our weekend. Cory also had Monday off and we spent the day at Wheeler Farm and being outside as much as humanly possible.

We have so many crazy and exciting things coming up I feel a little stressed out with it all but I am also really excited. People keep trying to prepare me/freak me out about having two kids and I'm not at all worried about it. I'm sure I will be blindsided by some things but I know what having a newborn is like and it's nothing compared to how awful this pregnancy has been. Bring it on! As long as I can get treatment for postpartum depression this time then I'll be set. We're ready for more adventures!!!

I hope everyone enjoyed their Easter. And I promise to make this blog more entertaining when I'm done growing humans inside of me.


So I Never Do This

This pregnancy has sucked. We know this. Let's not beat a dead horse.

But because it's been so bad I've felt super, super nasty. You know, fat, swollen, ugly, pasty, etc. There's nothing cute going on right now lol. On top of all that has been bad skin. It's been super dry and uneven and I've had some facial acne issues. Nothing bad, just texture and uneven skin tone along with lots of redness that I've never had before. Well, I've had it, but not to this degree. Since I have zero control over how fat I get, how much I swell, how my belly grows, how much pain I'm in from day to day, and everything else, I've felt like taking care of my awful skin was at least one thing I could try and control. My body may look nasty but I can control how my face and skin look to a degree.

First up on the fixing block was dryness. I have the most sensitive skin in the world and finding body lotion has been quite the battle. Aveeno eczema lotion has been the only working lotion but it was pricy for not very much. All my life I've heard people mention Cetaphil but for some ridiculous reason I've never tried it. I've known it's good for sensitive and acne prone skin but I just never gave it a try. Until now. I picked up this bottle at Wal-Mart

Actually I lied, I didn't get this kind. I just noticed mine is the daily advance lotion for sensitive skin, but you get the idea. I am so in love with this stuff. I get eczema badly on my arms and legs if I use anything with fragrance or certain chemicals and usually lotions without those don't seem to moisturize my skin well. But this stuff has been heaven sent. It doesn't irritate my skin at all and it keeps it quenched literally for 24 hours like the bottle says. I use it every morning after I shower and the next day I can still feel my skin is soft and moist. Moist is a gross word, let's say soft and supple. I don't know why I have waited 15 years to try it out, but I'm never going to look back. I've had for about 2 months now so it's been long enough that if any problems were going to flare up they would have by now. I highly  recommend this to anyone with sensitive skin. It too is a little pricy, about $12 but that's for a big bottle with a pump and the pump just makes life so much easier. Love it.

Ok so, my face. Ugh, my face. I have tried so much crap over the last few months. First I tried a skin care line I saw on YouTube that is only available online. It was mostly organic products that was supposed to be great for people with sensitive skin, acne, eczema, and alopecia. Well, I tried the cleanser. It helped and smelled awesome but it dried out my skin and there wasn't a big enough difference to make the price worth it. At least that was my experience. It's called Michael Todd True Organics for anyone who's interested. I bought the charcoal detox cleanser. It smelled like lavender essentials oils and it didn't irritate my eyes at all so it easily removed my makeup without trouble. I just didn't feel like it was worth the money. It wasn't outrageous like most expensive cleansers, but I'm a cheapskate so it was out of my comfort zone. The whole skin care regimen was $70. Ouch. I wasn't doing that. So maybe the cleanser with the rest of the regime would be awesome but not for me.

Ok so after that I picked up a Philosophy sample cleanser when I was at Sephora that I actually liked. It wasn't making any changes with my face but I just kept using it because I didn't want the sample to go to waste. I've seen so much hype about the Clarisonic Mia facial cleansing system but again, I'm not comfortable spending $150 on something to wash my face with. Maybe if I could save up for it but we have a baby coming and such so that just didn't seem right to me. So I looked on Amazon and found that Olay makes something similar for a fraction of the price. I'm sure the Clarisonic is way better but honestly i didn't care. Olay was better than what I had now, which was nothing. So I got it.  I started to notice a slight difference using the Olay cleaning brush but still was frustrated with my skin tone.

After lots of research online I decided to try the Proactiv+ regimen. I had super bad acne in Jr high and some of high school and had tried the standard proactiv system without much success so I was apprehensive. But this was a different system altogether made for more mature skin. I wasn't having major acne problems so I was super worried it would do nothing but dry out my face but it claimed to not do that and make your skin more radiant, even, smooth, and reduce redness. All things I wanted. Also, the whole system was only $30 which spoke to me. I decided to order it and try it. Worst case scenario, it wouldn't work.
I have been using this for almost a month now and I can honestly say I am IN LOVE with this stuff. I rarely if ever blog about things like this but I'm so obsessed with it I can't contain it anymore. It's a 3 step system with an exfoliating cleanser, pore treatment, and moisturizer. I also got a free gift when I ordered so I picked the pore purifying mask which basically makes my pores disappear. I love it, but of course it doesn't come with the $30 system. You're supposed to use all three steps twice a day.

I use the cleanser with my Olay brush still at night so I get a deeper clean but just use my fingers in the morning. I was so nervous about the pore targeting treatment being too harsh and drying but I've eased into using it all over my face twice a day and I haven't had problems.

So, it took about a week to see most of the changes but instantly I noticed how smooth my skin was. My skin is so soft every day I cant stop petting my face. The texture is gone and so are the tiny breakouts I was getting. My skin improves each day with less redness and more even tone. And it really is starting to look radiant and dewy. The only problem I did encounter was it dried out around my mouth which is a really dry place for me anyway. So I use a drop of Josie Maran argon oil on that area before applying the moisturizer and it fixed it right up. Facial oils freak me out but using it combined with acne fighting ingredients has been perfect. No more dryness. My make up applies wonderfully and my skin is starting to look so good you can really notice my chicken pox scars I have on my cheek and forehead ha ha. Before they were masked by nastiness.

Now that I've tried this and have seen the results, and continue to see them, (Proactiv says it can take 8 weeks to see full results and I'm not there yet) I can't ever go back. This stuff has been amazing. I just hope after I'm done being pregnant that hormones don't mess it all up again.

If you're looking for a good skin care system, this is the winner. I didn't have acne to start so you don't have to be a pizza face to need it. According to the internet, redness, texture, and uneven skin are all caused my acne anyway. Acne isn't just huge zits everywhere. Although I hate spending money on things like this, it's been worth every penny. Go get it. Now.