It Is Time

It's time for the annual New Years resolutions post. I glanced over last years and was pretty proud of myself for how many of them I was able to accomplish. My final glory moment was getting a 4.0 this past semester. That felt really good. Anyway, I've been pondering a lot about what to do this year since it'll be quite an exciting year for us and a lot will be unknown. But I've come up with some things I know I can improve on no matter what happens.

1. Be less judgmental. This is hard to admit publicly, but it's easier knowing so many people are in the same boat as me, but I am very critical of others. I don't want to go through my life picking out the things that bother me about people or what I think they should do differently. If I want people to accept me regardless of my faults, then I need to do the same. I can't be a hypocrite. And I hate the feeling I get when I think negatively. It's keeping me from really getting to know so many good people. No one is perfect, so why dwell on that?

2. Don't let things get to me. I'm not going to care what other people say or do, I'm going to go on with my life and keep doing what I know is right.

3. Forgive people easier. Again, no one is perfect so I need to forgive their mistakes and move on. I'm good with most people on this but there are a few I still need to just forget about.

4. Be a better friend. I talk about myself a lot. I noticed that the other day when I went to lunch with friends. I couldn't shut up! It was the first time I've really been able to sit down and talk with friends in a long time because of school, so I felt like a kid on Christmas all excited  for some girl time. But I should have let them talk more, I should have asked more questions about their life. I'm going to be a better friend to those around me and stop thinking of myself.

5. Never forget where our blessings come from. Cory and I have been outrageously blessed lately. I feel like we don't deserve it but by saying that I'm telling the Lord I don't trust His judgment. I do wholeheartedly. I don't know why we've been so lucky, but I never want to forget that He is the reason why we've been so blessed and I want to continue to thank Him for that every day of my life.

6. Find the humor in things. Life is full of many opportunities to laugh and I want to be a part of them.

7. Be more open and outgoing. I don't consider myself "shy". To me, shy means you're scared to talk to people and I'm not. I just keep to myself most of the time and wait for others to make the move. If you know me, you know I'm crazy and never shut up. But it takes a while to get to that point. I'm going to fix that. We'll be in a new ward sometime this year and I want to make as many friends as I can. I want people to know that I'm a good person and can be fun to be around.

8. Be the best mom I can be. I'm already worried about what people will think when we make the choices we're going to make in our lives. Will people think I'm a bad mom for hanging out alone with my friends without the baby? What will people say when they found out I'm going to bottle feed? What if our baby isn't crawling by the right age? The point is, it doesn't matter in the slightest. Everyone is different. Every situation, baby, and mother is different. Everyone has an opinion and wants to offer it, but no matter what I hear from others, I'm going to do my best and that's all I can do.

9. Remember what's really important in life. I always want my family, friends, and marriage to come first. I'll never sacrifice those things for worldly wants or desires. Those are the things that make me happiest and the only things I can take with me in the next life. Why waste precious time with the good things for things that really don't matter?

10. Be less selfish. This should come first, but luckily these aren't in order of importance. Serving more and thinking of others will help me be able to do all the other things easier. In serving others we forget ourselves and are happier. I need to forget about me and think of others. That's why we're here on this earth.

There are my ten goals for 2011. I'll probably come up with less important ones as life changes but these are the ones I need to fix and will work on the most. 2010 has been awesome. So many good things and accomplishments have occurred and I couldn't be happier. I hope I can look back on my life someday and say with confidence that I lived it to the best of my ability. Regardless of what others think or say, I want to know for myself that I'm doing the best I can. Happy New Year everyone!!


Christmas 2010

Let me just preface this post by saying I was the worlds biggest slacker this Christmas and took a total of 4 pictures. I started the day thinking "I need to take pictures, we don't have any recent ones," and I lazily took a couple in the morning and then placed my camera in a weird place and forgot ALL about taking photos. And to make matters worse I forgot to take it over to Cory's parents so I have none of them. But I'll make up for that on New Years. I feel awful. I think part of the problem was Cory worked Christmas day and I had a harder time with that than I thought I would. I wasn't as cheery without him as I usually am. Either way, just know I don't have very many pictures.

So, I woke up and had breakfast with Lee and Shirleen. Then I showered and went over to my parents house to open presents and have lunch. I got this picture of my mom and I:
Not the most flattering but with 4 pictures I can't afford to be picky. Anyway, we opened presents in a frenzy because I only had a short time before I had to leave. Bradlee and Brock loved their presents we got them, that is until Brock opened the Buzz Lightyear my mom got him. He freaked out. If you know him at all, you know he worships Buzz. Here he is not-so-patiently waiting for my mom to free him from the box:
Presents went by fast and then it was time for lunch, which was awesome. Christmas dinner is my favorite part about the day. We always have super nice china and the food is phenomenal and there's funeral potatoes!! Oh, here's a truly awful picture of the girls in the family. We talked about doing another one when Natalie, Collin's girl came over but we forgot. Surprised? We'll get one with everyone soon.
After lunch I went over to the Hunters and we headed out to see Narnia at the Gateway. Going to see a movie on Christmas day has been the family tradition for a long time. We swore last time we saw a 3D movie that we were done with them because they always cause us to have really bad headaches. Well, it was in 3D haha. The movie was really good though. However, lots of us had bad tension headaches the rest of the day. After the movie we came home and Cory was there (YAY!!!) I missed him so much I got emotional when I saw him. We quickly opened our presents then went and opened presents with the rest of the family. I love the way they do presents. Lee hands them out and everyone just goes for it. I think everyone loved their presents and it was fun to sit around together. After presents we had a WONDERFUL dinner of prime rib and all kinds of yummy other things. During dinner we watched Despicable Me, which is hilarious, and helped Braden put together the millions of guns he got for Christmas. After the movie we went back to my parents house so Cory could open his presents. We were both really tired at this point and my head was killing me so we weren't tons of fun. We played Catch Phrase for a short time before we had to go back home. On our way out we went to say goodbye to the kids and found Brock watching Toy Story 3 like this:
I'm glad he understands the true point of Christmas. I saw people running while going back and forth throughout the day and I thought they were literally insane. It's CHRISTMAS!! You're supposed to relax in your jammies and spend time with loved ones. Anyway, we had a good laugh before leaving.

Most of the day it didn't feel like Christmas without Cory, but I still had a great time. And when he got home it made it perfect. I love giving presents to people and watching their faces when they open them. And of course there is the true meaning of Christmas, the birth of the Savior. I felt like I had a hard time feeling that this year with the running around so today during church I really tried to think about it and it helped me feel the spirit. I'm truly blessed with so much in my life and I feel so undeserving. Whenever I get around to doing my tacky new years post I'll probably talk about wanting to change that. I hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas. Oh, and congrats to friends and family who got engaged this week and had wonderful things happen to them!


Dragging Behind the Wagon

This Friday I will be 12 weeks pregnant, done with my first trimester!! I've been starting to feel better and I've had more energy. I decided to take my doctors advice of "You can exercise as much and as hard as you want" and jump back on the exercise wagon, so to speak. I must not have been paying attention because I missed the jump. Bad. I knew it would be ugly, but I didn't know it would be hide in a dark cave, ugly. It's been a month since I've felt well enough to do any physical activity. I know that's not enough to put me into the rut I'm in now, so thank you little baby for helping me realize just how hard it is to do stuff with you inside me. Now I know and will not try to kill myself again. Here's what happened.

I started by getting back on the treadmill. My running shoes felt wonderful after our long time apart and I started with a warm up.I was pumped and ready to go. Or so I thought. I started with a very simple pace, 5mph. A snails pace, basically, but I wanted to make sure I wasn't overdoing it. After a half mile, I had to pause the workout and take a trip to the restroom. I thought I had cleared that one up 7 minutes BEFORE I started but I'm sure this is something I will have to get used to from here on out. Either way, I got back on and continued my run. I lasted 12 minutes total. 12. I had to stop and sit in front of the fan to keep from passing out. That was a hard pill to swallow. 3 months ago I was running 13 miles and now I'm dying after 1?? I didn't realize being pregnant would make it so hard. Either way, I resolved that in 7 or so more months I can run with just me again and things would be better. Until then I'd just try my best.

Next I did the exercise bike. A 12 minute workout was not really what I imagined so I decided to see if it would be any better. This was a heck of a lot of easier, probably since I wasn't jostling around and such. I was able to go a lot longer and do a good enough work out for my first day back on the job. I'm not going to beat myself up. At least I'm trying, right? And if it's something I love, which it is, then hopefully I'll be able to just work through the hard times and help keep myself from gaining an extra 40 pounds or so.

I also thought about something else when my "workout" went down hill. I blogged a lot over the summer about trying to love me for who I am and not being obsessed with my weight or wanting to look like anyone else. I was working on that because I knew sooner or later I would be pregnant and I knew I'd have a hard time giving up physical stuff (like climbing, that one eats at me all the time) and getting a gigantic tummy. Plus, you never know how you'll look pregnant until it happens since everyone is different. Was I going to be one of those people who just gets a huge tummy and everything else is relatively normal? Or would I be pregnant EVERYWHERE? Either way I wanted to start early at not really caring about that and loving me and just trying to enjoy this time. But, it's been so much easier than I expected. Granted I'm not huge yet and that will probably still be irritating. But, I'm not what I was 3 months ago and I've really not cared. I know it's worth it and I know it's temporary. It's a change that is so exciting and fun. Yes, there will be hard days. But I'm really glad that I'm not hating myself every day or obsessing over the scale. This is natural and not here forever and I should just enjoy it while it's here. And I should still try even when I die after running a mile. At least I'm able to run some, right? That's better than nothing! So, I had a great learning experience this morning. Maybe after a couple weeks I'll have the endurance again to pull myself back up onto that wagon instead of just dragging behind it.


David Archuleta and More

Thursday evening we had tickets to go see the MoTab Christmas concert with David Archuleta. It was so awesome! I wanted to take pictures of us outside the Conference Center since I haven't taken any pictures lately, but I forgot my camera. The concert was wonderful. He is one talented kid. What I loved the most about him when he was on American Idol was his innocence and humility and that hasn't changed. His voice is so pure and powerful. We had a really great time even though it was so stinking cold outside!

I checked my grades yesterday and I'm so happy to report that after a semester of busting my butt, I got a 4.0!! That leaves me with a cumulative GPA of 3.82. I'm proud of myself. Way to go out with a bang, eh? I just hope I can keep the trend going when I go to Weber next spring and have a little baby to look after. I think I'll be able to manage. I hope.

I'll try to do better at taking pictures because that's one thing that makes a blog interesting. I hope everyone is having a good Christmas season so far.


I Made It!!!

Up until Tuesday morning I felt like a balloon in a room of pins. I thought for sure I was done for. But, I've safely deflated and I can now say that I AM DONE WITH SLCC!!! After a whole weekend and 6 straight hours of work on Monday, I finished all my finals and projects and so far am coming out on top. I have one grade in already that's an "A", I'm just waiting for the others. I've had two days now where I've been able to do whatever I wanted after work. Yesterday I went Christmas shopping and today I kidnapped my mom and bugged her all afternoon. I'm not really sure what to do with myself. No, I can no longer use homework as an excuse to get out of Cory's dog house for not doing anything around the house. But on the bright side, soon I'll be able to use the pregnancy excuse! MUAHAHAHA!!! Alright, I'll save that one for special occasions. Either way, I'm really excited to be done and not always have a stress headache. Friends, beware! I'll start to bug you again from now on.

I promised myself that I wouldn't always blog about pregnancy things because it gets really old, but since I'm claiming free reign today, here's some things I've experienced lately:
I'm hungry ALL THE TIME. I'm going to eat us out of house and home! I've always had a large appetite, so you can imagine how disastrous this must be!
The other day my mom asked me to sing a song with her while she was playing the piano. It's a sad song already entitled, "You Would Have Loved This" that reminds me of my Aunt Kim and Adrianne. But in the middle I just started bawling!! The tears were suddenly just there, without any warning at all. I didn't even have that painful lump in the throat first. BAM! Here's some tears. It was weird.
I can tell which kids have showered and which ones haven't. Not my favorite part of the day.
I'm becoming less and less awake each time I need to wake up in the middle of the night to, um... you know. Maybe this will be the start of a beautiful relationship between myself and sleep-walking. As long as I don't make any messes, how bad could it be?
Everything annoys the crap out of me.
I had someone pat my belly the other day, even though it's not really a tummy yet, and I almost cried.
I'm getting maternity clothes for Christmas, even though I won't need them quite yet. I can tell you this, they may be comfy but I am so not looking forward to being huge.
I love every pregnant woman I see. I just want to hug them and freak out over the exciting yet miserable time we're both experiencing and bond. But I don't, because that's just creepy.
And finally...
Cory has been so sweet to me and has already been so helpful. He's seriously the best.

I want to write more but I'm hungry again (surprise, surprise) and should probably go make something before  I phase into my other form. Hell hath no fury like a hungry Megan.


Our First Appointment

Today we had our first appointment with the doctor. I didn't know what to expect except blood tests. Even though I tried not to get excited, I was so ecstatic to be there I just kept smiling and laughing at everything the nurse said like some idiot. I even bravely asked her if she needed my urine because if not, I needed to get rid of it. She was so cute and friendly. She probably gets first time nit-wits like us all the time. But that would be the fun part of the job, assisting new and excited parents. Anyway, he did an ultrasound and as soon as it started up he said, "Aw, only one." PHEW!! I was really nervous twins were in the future because I'm already showing a little bit. Everyone says you can't tell, but I can and so can Cory. He prodded around a little and we got to see his little heart beating and tears instantly came to my eyes. Then he started moving around and we even got to see him wave "at us" (the nurse gasped and said "Look! He's waving at mommy and daddy!") and he kicked his legs and squirmed around a little bit. It was so exciting!! I just stared in awe at the little guy. It was such a huge relief to see that there's really something in there and so far, it has all it's parts and looks healthy and normal. Here are the photos we got:
Here's the side view. You can see his arm and legs and this is where the heart beat was.
 Here's the back of him. You can see his left arm and spine.
 This one is my FAVORITE!! You can see his nose if you look closely and his arms and feet.
It was so cute to see the little one moving around inside me. In 4 weeks we'll hear the heartbeat and in 4 more weeks we'll know what we're having. Cory was so cute. I can't describe the look on his face when he saw the ultrasound. Pure joy and amazement. I think he finally gets that we have a baby now. He did before, but when we got home he patted my belly with a huge grin on his face. It was such a fun visit!!