8.18.2010

An Update...Sort Of

Sorry I've been so bad at updating. I've been stuck in a negative funk lately where I don't really feel like talking to people and nothing really excites me. I used to think there wasn't a reason for it, until today. I realized it's a couple of things that when piled up, are apparently causing me some light depression-symptoms. I've been trying hard to snap out of it but a couple of the issues are beyond my control. I know I can control how I react to them, but they really do hurt my feelings - as lame as that sounds. Cory's been a trooper to put up with me lately. Thank heavens for him. Anyway, so I haven't had any desire to blog because I've been so negative. I'm going to attempt a normal update now... here we go!

Cory Update:

Cory had his birthday yesterday!! We didn't do much to celebrate last night because we went to dinner on Saturday instead. We're also going to lunch and the temple this Saturday so hopefully with the fun throughout the week, he'll feel like his birthday was special. I love my little guy! He's also been working lots and regardless of the fact that I hardly see him, he's still loving his job. I guess I shouldn't say "hardly", he's home by 7:00 almost every night and we get a couple hours together before our lame-o early bedtime. On Monday Rio Tinto had a party for all their Kennecott Utah Copper employees at the ReaL Soccer stadium. They showed a movie on the jumbo tron and all the concessions were free. We thought only in heaven could you eat pizza, french fries, hot dogs, ice cream, and popcorn in one meal. It was fun. He's getting ready to work on the Jeep again since we'll be heading to Moab in October. I'm not as angry as I usually am about it because it's not a car we need to get everywhere anymore. He can work on it all he wants, we won't need to drive it until October. His birthday present is new springs for the front, so he's really excited about that.
I wish I had more to tell you about Cory but that really does sum up what he does all the time. He's happy and healthy and that's about it :)

Me on the other hand, since I'm a dork and have a lot of my life public on here, I have lots to update on...

School started today. I have to brag for a moment because I feel SOOOOO special at work. I get bombarded with hugs and smiles everywhere I go and hear "Hi Mrs. Hunter!!" over and over again. I feel like a celebrity. I love those kids so dang much! They make me feel incredible. I'm in 4th grade this year which is awesome because I get the same kids I had last year that grew so close to my heart. I can't wait to see what this year brings.

As of 2 days ago, I have a new calling. I will be the new young women athletic director. I KNEW a young women's calling was coming up. I'm glad it doesn't require teaching a lesson. It will be fun because I love sports, I'm just nervous for how to be their coach. Wish me luck!!

My race is in just over a week. I feel completely ready. I've also had 2, 12 mile runs down now with absolutely no knee pain. I LOVE my new shoes!! I don't plan on being spectacular. I may even be the last one done. But I can't wait to accomplish something for me and know I did it. Yes, it's a race and they're competitive. But for now, this is for me. I don't care about everyone else.

I've also decided that I'm done being a doormat. I'm sick of letting people treat me like crap or say/do hurtful things. I'm sick of people's excuses and being told no all the time. I'm sick of being the only one who cares to get together with people. I'm sick of competitive people and everyone finding their self-worth in what they can do better than someone else. I can't handle it anymore. This is one of the main reasons I've been so down. I've felt like crap lately. I'm done with it.

Alright, I'm getting negative again, sorry. Besides being in a bad mood, I really am happy right now. I know that sounds so contradictory, but I am. I have the best husband in the world, I have the best job in the world, soon I'll be accomplishing a goal I've worked my butt off for, and we have so many exciting plans for the future! I'll try and be better at updating as I work harder on getting rid of my bad attitude.

3 comments:

Jennifer said...

So sorry you aren't feeling 100% happy lately. I've had to remind myself to let go of negative thinking quite a few times today too. It feels so much better when I can catch myself in the act and turn things around. It's very empowering to realize that I can just let the negative thoughts go, if I choose to, and then the negative emotions all disappear at the same time! Yay! Nothing is forcing me to think negatively. I do that all on my own, and I can let go of it just as easily. :)

Marissa said...

Sorry you have been a little blue lately! Hope you feel better soon. I have the same thoughts on the doormat thing. What kind of shoes do you have? My knee has been killing me lately.

Lisa McLachlan said...

At least you're posting...:) And, I'm really excited for next weekend. I'm sure you'll do great. I'm glad to hear work is good. I hear the receipe for washing the blues away is to either do service (which I'm terrible about) or count you're blessings. You have tons of blessings, trust me. :)