7.27.2010

Running Accomplishments

I ran my first 11 mile run yesterday. It was easier than I expected. I finally am starting to get really excited about finishing this race. First off, I can't wait to have my mornings back, to be able to exercise when I want and how I want, and to not have to have a deadline to work towards anymore. I never thought I'd reach this point. I still have 3 weeks of hard running to go, but it seems so simple now. I just hope my knee and hips don't cause any more trouble. They have really been hurting. Anyway, as I was running yesterday I started thinking about how it's going to be to cross that finish line and know I just ran 13.1 miles. I got teary eyed because first off, it's going to feel awesome. But there is an underlying meaning to it all that I never put together before. This race is in Cache Valley, the place I spent 4 years of my life. I had some amazing times up there, and some not so amazing times that made me feel like I had been chewed up and spit out. I realized I don't really like going there because I feel like Logan defeated me. I know that sounds crazy, but one of the reasons I fought moving home in the first place was because I felt like if I did, I had failed at living on my own. Of course that's crazy, but the feelings were there. It hit me that it will be a personal triumph for me to conquer this huge goal of mine in Logan. It's going to help vanquish that feeling that I was too weak and had to leave with my head hanging low. I don't know if this is making any sense, but I can't wait to accomplish this. I wish it were sooner. The more running magazines I read and hear advice from experts, I realize more and more that I am on the perfect track for my training. It feels good to know there isn't a key element I've missed that is going to leave me unprepared. I don't really have any goals for this race except to finish without walking. I don't care about my time - it is only my first half marathon - because I just want to say I did it. I used to think that after this race I'd pull in the reigns on running a bit. I think my opinion on that has changed. I have developed something that I really enjoy. I want to keep up the work and continue running races. I love feeling like an athlete. I love being a runner. Finally, I am accomplishing something great!

4 comments:

Jennifer said...

Wow Megan! That is so amazing! Congratulations on finding something you enjoy and is so fulfilling!!

Amy said...

You are going to do soooo amazing! You're totally ready!

Lisa McLachlan said...

Yes Megan! You're awesome! Funny, though, you are a totally different girl than the one I asked to run the Women's Only 5k last Aug. :) You said you hated to run! :) Thanks for showing me that people can change.

Marissa said...

Woot woot! You go girl! This will be such a big accomplishment!