2.01.2010

Kind of Losing My Mind

I'm so incredibly bored right now. I've spent the entire weekend inside with the worst sore throat I can remember having in ages, along with body aches and a horrible fever, and I think I might explode. I did all the homework for the week for one of my classes and half of the other class and I still have time to kill. I wish life had a fast forward button. There are so many things Cory and myself are waiting for and none of them seem like they'll ever get here. First off, the end of winter. I'm so sick of gloomy skies and cold weather and being stuck inside. It's just depressing. We're also getting anxious for Cory to start at Kennecott. I'm going to be REALLY pissed if we waited all this time and planned only to find out there aren't any available positions for him come spring time. It's a possibility that we're somewhat prepared for. But I just keep telling myself that hopefully Cory got this scholarship that we prayed so hard for because he needed the JOB and the Lord knows that. I'll just keep having faith. I get discouraged sometimes when there's a lot on my plate. I'm also ready to be in a home of our own. We've been so blessed to live where we do, but I want to be on our own and have a place with windows where we can see the outside world. But this requires more waiting. Hopefully when Cory starts at Kennecott, we can start saving and time will fly by. Yet again, Megan get's another lesson in patience :).

I've also had AMPLE time to think and turn things over in my head. I want so badly to blog about frustrations and worries but that never turns out right so I'll just say this: I wish people would just be who they are. I wish lying wasn't so habitual and that people would just stay true to one thing for more than a few months. I part ways with people for a short time and they're completely different people when our paths cross again. I don't get it. The world would be a much better place if people would just be honest. But I can't make them, so I guess I'll just find a way to deal with it.

Sorry this blog is sort of depressing. Maybe something cool and exciting will happen soon...

2 comments:

Lisa McLachlan said...

I'm sorry you're still not feeling well. I hope you feel better soon! luv ya!

Wendy said...

You'll feel better as soon as you can get back outside. I think we all will - sunshine is the greatest thing! Not only that but you get to have outside recess!! How many of us get that?