Change is constant. A lot of things have been changing in my life, some expected, others not. But it's caused me to value things differently and ponder a lot of issues - mostly religion. I've always been an active member, but my activity has swayed a bit in my life. I questioned my testimony a few years back, which developed into a strong realization in the truth. With that time of uncertainty, I was able to discover how I really feel. I've tried my life with devotion to the gospel, and I've tried it without. I know now which I much rather would prefer. I know the gospel makes me happy and helps me choose the right.
I've had this burning in my heart the last little while regarding the gospel. Our world is uncertain and getting scarier by the hour. Wickedness has smeared our planet and the longer it goes on, the more it progresses. Obviously, no one knows the time of the second coming. But I have a feeling it's close. I don't know how much more awful the world can get. The great millennial battle is close. I feel stronger that ever that NOW is the time to decide who's side we're going to fight on. Now is the time to prepare for war. Some chose to believe it's not coming, and when it does, I fear for them. Others know it is, and simply don't care. I personally am terrified for it. I don't want to find myself on the Devil's side. I don't think I do anything awful enough in my life that would instantly put me in outer darkness, but I know I have vast room for improvement - as do we all. I've been reading the Bible lately, mostly because I've never read it before and I'd like to know more about it. I've been reading in Matthew and I came across the parable of the sower:
19 When any one heareth the
word of the kingdom, and under-
standeth it not, then cometh the
wicked one, and catcheth away that
which was sown in his heart. This is
he which received seed by the way
20 But he that received the seed
into stony places, the same is he
that heareth the word, and anon
with joy receiveth it;
21 Yet hath he not root in himself,
but dureth for a while: for when
tribulation or persecution ariseth
because of the word, by and by he is
22 He also that received seed a-
mong the thorns is he that heareth
the word: and the cares of this world,
and the deceitfulness of riches,
choke the word, and he becometh
23 But he that received seed into
the good ground is he that heareth
the word, and understandeth it;
which also beareth fruit, and bring-
eth forth, some an hundredfold,
some sixty, some thirty.
Now is the time to decide. We must listen to the word of the Lord. We must take the counsel of the Prophet and our leaders. We must read our scriptures and do our best to be like God. This is how we prepare for war. I saw this painting at Deseret Book the other day and it actually brought tears to my eyes:
It touched my heart because there has been war and murder since time began. Times have always been hard and uncertain. The Savior is coming and he will bring peace to our lives and our lands. We will be so grateful and so humbled that we will kneel at his feet and sob. We will have no need to worry anymore.
I'm not sure my purpose for writing all this. I've always been one to try and help those in need and I know now, more than ever, there are many in need of spiritual help. Many. I know Christ is the way. I know his gospel is the way. It also says in Matthew:
28 Come unto me, all ye that
labour and are heavy laden, and I
will give you rest.
29 Take my yoke upon you, and
learn of me: for I am meek and
lowly in heart; and ye shall find
rest unto your souls.
30 For my yoke is easy, and my
burden is light.
Could was ask for a better invitation? This is where peace is. I hope I can continue to improve myself and live by his teachings so that I can stand with him when the battle and the end comes. I'd give anything to know those I love are all going to be on the same side. I wish there was more I could do, but we have our agency for a reason. I know the church is true. I know following Christ is the only way we can be happy. It is the only way we can find comfort. Time is running out. The gospel is the only way. Another parable I read that hit me hard was:
47 Again, the kingdom of heaven
is like unto a net, that was cast in-
to the sea, and gathered of every
48 Which, when it was full, they
drew to shore, and sat down, and
gathered the good into vessels, but
cast the bad away.
49 So shall it be at the end of the
world: the angels shall come forth,
and sever the wicked from among
50 And shall cast them into the
furnace of fire: there shall be wailing
and gnashing of teeth.
These are scary times. I'm so grateful that we have the gospel to lead us and comfort us. I know that if we follow Christ, everything will be ok. I'm also so grateful that I've been touched by the scriptures lately to help me understand more clearly what I need to do to be better. I love the Lord and I love this gospel!!