Losers, Emotions, and the Circus!

I have a lot to write about today. First off, Saturday night Cory and I went to the circus!! It was a ton of fun! I was completely blown away by some of things those performers do. It was insane. Cory got video of some of the things that I will have to post laster. But it was a great time and it was so nice to spend it with each other.

In other news, last night my family decided we're going to start our own biggest loser competition. I wont lie, the idea came to me during the season premier of The Office. Our goal is to see who can lose the biggest percent of weight by the Sunday before Thanksgiving. We've each contributed $10 and whoever wins gets to buy whatever they want with that money. It should be a lot of fun. Maybe I too can buy a tape worm from an old creepy man and "get skinny" haha. I love that show.

Well, switching gears, I've been feeling a little emotional. There are several reasons behind it. First, I had a revelation last night that I basically suck as a person. Okay, that's a little far fetched. I don't suck, but I have a vast area that can be filled with improvement. The biggest thing I think I need to work on is gossip. I discovered last night that one of my close friends is completely untrustworthy. I've always suspected because they bad mouth all their other friends to me, why should I be any different? Turns out I'm not. Now I was getting all heated about it with my mom when it suddenly hit me. I've done the same thing. I don't bad mouth every single person I know. It's only those I truly have issues with. But that still doesn't make it okay. It's never okay and it doesn't make me have a whole lot of integrity. I need to stop. It doesn't do any good but hurts those involved - including me. So that's my top goal right now (yes, even before winning the family fat fest) to stop saying things I wouldn't say to a person behind their backs. I know everyone struggles with this. It's going to be tough but I've got to try. I need to find the good in people. The other reason I've been emotional is I've just been so grateful for my family. I was thinking about my Dad yesterday morning. My Dad has always worked his tail off to provide for us. Because of that, he hasn't always been able to be at everything with us. But when he is able to, he's there and he tries really hard. The thing I thought about the most was when I got my tonsils out. He was there the whole time and even went to the gift shop and bought me a troll doll to help me feel better.... (I'm such a baby, I'm totally crying on the computer right now). This was about 15 years ago... but I still remember. He's such an awesome man and I wouldn't want another Dad. Just him. Also, I've been missing Tyler and his family like mad. It sucks to have people you love so much live so far away. But I guess it could be worse, at least they don't live in another country. Anyway, I love the people I have in my life and I'm going to do better to not talk about those who I don't love so much :) I realize that sounds bad. But I'm trying to improve myself.


Wendy said...

Babe-you are so awesome! Just one thing, when you write stuff like that call and warn me OK? It would be best if I read it at home instead of crying at work and having everyone wonder what's wrong with me!! Love ya!!

Tory said...

Tyler and his family miss you too!