I realized I have no control over my emotions. Friday was the last day of school. I handed out the class's wedding invitations on Thursday and first thing in the morning I had about 10 kids come up to me all excited because they could come! I'm SO excited to see them!! Then Zach, this sweet, adorable boy handed me a picture he drew for me. It was the picture on our wedding invitation. Let's compare the two.
It was one of the best things I've ever gotten. And it made me start crying right away. The day went okay though. I cried when they showed the year end video during the assembly. Then we signed year books and then we went outside for carpool and send everyone off for the summer. I was doing okay at this point. I had tears in my eyes, but I hadn't "cried" yet. Well then Seth, another one of my kids came up and hugged me goodbye and then said "I'm really glad you were my teacher this year." I lost it. It was pretty hard for me. I know I'll see them next year, but it was just hard to say goodbye. I know, I'm a wimp.
Well then Friday night Cory, our friend Nate, and I went up above the B to go camping. It was a lot of fun. I needed a little getaway like that, even though it was just overnight and I was with 2 boys lol. Nah, I'm kidding I love hanging out with them. It was a lot of fun.
Then Saturday was Cory's first ever family reunion. It was kind of weird because I still feel uneasy around his family. It's not their fault, it's mine. I just have a really hard time getting to know people sometimes. And Cory tends to ignore me when we get with his family which makes it that much harder to have a good time. I feel very much like a fish out of water. I hope that goes away after a little while and I can feel more comfortable with who I am. I don't know why I get that way, but I get SUPER paranoid people aren't going to like me. Especially when they don't talk to me right off. I'm weird.
Today is Sunday and there are more family activities going with the reunion but I don't think I'm going to go. Most of it involves food and it's fast Sunday. And I start temple prep today so I'm not going to miss church either. That, and I miss my family. I feel like I haven't been home in weeks. So I'll just hang here today. I've gotta say, I'm really excited to go to the temple. I know it will be a major blessing in my life.