The Calm Before the Storm

This is probably going to be my last post until after the honeymoon. In case you didn't know, I'm getting married in a day!!! AH!!! :)

I thought this week would be hard because I'd be too excited to stand myself. WRONG! It's been bad because Cory and I have been so stressed we actually have been fighting a bit. It's always weird when we fight because we rarely do it, so when it happens, we don't really know what to do haha. One thing I absolutely love about him though is that he cant stand to see me cry. You can see the pain on his face when he see's me upset. That's true love right there. Gosh I am so lucky to have him in my life!! Anyway, today we talked about our mood swings. So we're good again. And to set the record straight, we are both extremely excited!!! It felt like this day would never arrive! I feel like I should give some sort of speech as I bid farewell to the single life. Which is weird, I know. Especially since I wont miss it :P. But instead I've decided to post some things that I learned over my 5 years of post-high school dating.
1. Stand up for yourself. You deserve to be happy so don't ever let anyone ever do anything to you that will rob you of that.
2. Always have fun.
3. Don't waste time over bad feelings. Whether they be from a fight with your current "mate" or from a break-up, it's damaging to the soul to harbor those emotions. Do your best to let them go.
4. Be vocal about how you feel. Don't make others play the guessing game. It's frustrating.
5. Don't ever sacrifice your beliefs and standards for someone else. If lowering your expectations is required to be with them, they aren't worth it. Walk away.
6. Cherish your friends. You never know how much you might need them.
7. Always trust in the Lord. Things may get hard and seem impossible. Relying on him will get you through anything.
8. Don't ever let anyone else make you feel like less of a person. And don't take any "constructive criticism" about your appearance either.
9. Don't say "I Love You" unless you really mean it.
10. Do your absolute best to not get discouraged. Remember life has a timeline and things will work out the way they are supposed to.
11. Don't underestimate people. That holds true for both ways. See the good and notice the bad.
12. Don't be afraid to go out of your comfort zone a little bit. You can make great memories and meet good people that way.
13. Last but not least, love who you are. How can anyone else love you if you don't love yourself first?

I'm pretty sure this is a useless blog, but I'm feeling sentimental right now and wanted to waste my night writing about sappy things. Until next week my friends, I bid you farewell. I'll be Megan Hunter!!


Weekend Update

It's been a crazy weekend but it's been so much fun!!! Friday night Tyler, Tory, Bradlee, and Brock arrived. Bradlee has gotten so big! And she's talking now which threw me off a bit at first. For example, I was playing with her in my mom's room and she started laughing and ran out of the room. So I called after her in a sad voice, "Bradlee!" Just to see what she'd do. 2 seconds later she poked her head around the door and said "What?" I was shocked she actually talked to me lol. But it was the cutest thing ever. I've been having so much fun with her!! To explain the pictures, she's quite a handful. The top one where she's sleeping is a funny story. She was getting grouchy and needed a nap. So we put her in my mom's room and shut the door. She of course didn't like that so she cried and cried. Well after a while she stopped and we went in to check on her. She had found the satellite remote and had turned on just the TV, but not the satellite. So the tv had the snowy screen and was making that fuzzy sound. And she was asleep just like the picture. It was hilarious!! Also, when she was with me when I was getting ready to go to the temple. She watched me put on my heels and tried to copy me with a pretend shoe. When we got back and I took my shoes off, she ran over to them and put them on and started walking around hahaha!! And let me tell ya, she is a pro! She was walking over air mattresses on those suckers and didn't even stumble. Way to go!!
Okay, switching babies, Brock is so sweet! He's very cuddly which is awesome. And he's way too cute for words. I cant wait to watch him get as big as Bradlee. The best part about them coming though has been watching Collin. Neither of these kids existed when he left so it's been funny to see him interact with them. I asked him if he wanted to hold Brock for the first time and he said no because he doesn't know what to do. So I helped him. A little while later Brock started moving around and it looked like he was going to start getting fussy. Collin was like "Um.... Mom?...Someone?" haha he freaked out. He's getting better though. It's been fun.
Also, last night I went to the temple to receive my endowments. I wont talk much about it because it's very personal. But it was awesome and it was not even close to being as weird or intense as I imagined. It was great. the small, hard to see picture above is me and Cory after the session. No one remembered a camera so we had to use his cell phone lol. But it was amazing to have my whole family there with me. They were all waiting in the celestial room for us when Cory and I walked in. It reminded me of heaven. Everyone was smiling and so happy to see me and the love in the room was..... I cant explain it. It was so incredible. I love my family so much and it's meant so much to me to have them all there. I don't want Tyler and Tory to leave :(
Overall it's been an amazing weekend. Today Collin will speak in sacrament meeting and we'll have family over. I'm really excited. I'm sad to see this weekend coming to a close. But it's one I'll never forget.


He's Home!!!

Wow! Wow! Wow! What a day!! First off, Collin is home!!!! This morning we went to the airport to pick him up. His flight was supposed to land at 10:14 so we waited a while. Finally his flight status changed to "arrived", so we got up and moved over to the terminal gate to watch for him to come down the escalator. We waited and waited and waited - no Collin. After almost a half an hour, he's still not coming. We knew he was coming home with about 5 other missionaries. We looked around and we were the only family in the terminal... something wasn't right. So Lisa went to the baggage claim area to see if his flight number had popped up on there yet. She comes back and says "His flight isn't over there, but if I'm reading the screen right, it says he's supposed to be at baggage claim 7 which isn't over there." Uh oh! So we quickly asked the security lady where baggage claim 7 was. She replies "That's over in the Delta Terminal." CRAP!! We were in the wrong terminal!!! I let out a gasp, and we high tailed it to the Delta Terminal. We raced inside and we can see missionaries hugging their families and people taking pictures like crazy. My eyes were scanning the crowd looking for Collin. The second I saw him, I broke into a sprint and ran at him full speed!! And cried! But I feel so bad because since we were in the wrong place, he came down the escalator with those other missionaries all excited and expecting a warm welcome and we weren't even there! It breaks my heart! And yet it's kind of funny. But he's home safe and he's awesome! He looks exactly the same and I think he'll adjust well. I love that big guy and I'm so happy to have him here again.


I get a lot of questions about what life is going to be like after the wedding. So I think I'll give everyone the info here. We'll be sealed June 26th in the Salt Lake Temple. Side note, I was reading the Ensign supplement this morning about President Monson and I was really struck with how awesome that temple is. He and his wife were sealed there. Many prophets and apostles were. There is so much history in that sacred building. I wonder if we'll be sealed in the same room as them? Or my parents? Anyway its awesome. Lets get back on track...
After the wedding we're going down to Vegas for our honeymoon. I'm kinda nervous about it because Vegas has gotten SO bad. But the reasons we decided to go are as follows:
1. We've already been there. Why spend the money and time to go somewhere exotic that we haven't seen when all we'll want to do is spend time with each other? We can go somewhere cool for an anniversary and then we'll have the time to see everything.
2. It's far enough away that is feels like a vacation but close enough that gas will only cost us $45,000 :P
3. There's enough wholesome activities to do down there when we decide we want to go out. And the pools rock!
4. The buffets. Need I say more?
5. There's a temple there - so we're going to go.
So that's why we chose Vegas. We're not going to gamble or partake in the sleaze down there.
After the honeymoon we'll make our home in Bountiful. Cory currently lives with his Grandma in a house his parents own. The house has an upstairs apartment and a basement one. There are currently renters in the basement till August, so Cory's aunt Rhonda is being a saint and has offered to take Grandma until then so we can have the upstairs. Then the renters will leave, we'll take the basement and Grandma will come back. The house is by Dick's market. While we live there we've offered to help his parents update the place a little here and there so when they sell it, they can get a better value. Cory and I will both continue to work for the school district until August. Cory is also working a couple nights a week at Dick's this summer. In August, he'll go back to school and finish his last year on his welding degree, then hopefully he'll be able to find a job right away. There is a high demand for welders so.. cross your fingers. He will also still work at Dick's, but more frequently. I will also return to school in August, both teaching and learning. I'm returning to first grade at Legacy Preparatory Academy during the day, and at night I'll be going to SLCC to finish up some classes so I can make more money :). It's going to be tough and we'll both be very busy, but we're excited.


I Guess It Needed To Be Said

Alright, first off, I have some bad news. A lot of you have been asking to see bridals. I'm not going to show them :(. I kinda don't want a whole lot of people seeing me in my dress before my wedding day. I don't know, it's just something I want to keep a surprise. That's one of the main things people anticipate when they go to weddings/receptions - what the bride looks like. And it'll be no fun if everyone has seen me already. I'm really sorry friends. But hey, you'll see them at the reception! :P

I started working at the school district again yesterday on the mow crew. I forgot how much hard work this job can be. I'm pretty sore. But I'm liking it so far. My crew seems pretty cool. Cory is also working at the District this summer but sadly not with me. Although it's been fun seeing him every morning. I just feel like I get to start my day off right now. I love that man more than I could ever describe.

Collin comes home from his mission in Ft. Lauderdale on the 19th of this month. I'm so excited!! I've missed him more than I realized. And I'm pretty sure I want to be the first one to hug him. So he'll come home that Thursday. Then Friday, Tyler and Tory and their kids will be coming out and I'll FINALLY get to see Brock!! I've missed them all so much. Our family isn't whole with them gone. Then Saturday I go the the Bountiful Temple to receive my endowments. This is something I have mixed emotions about. First and foremost, I am excited! I'm ready and willing and make the sacred covenants. I'm actually excited to wear garments. And I'm thrilled to be able to have a scared place to go with Cory to feel the spirit and receive inspiration. But, I am also nervous. I'll be honest, I'm getting sick of people saying how weird it is. I know that already. I've been told that 100 times. I'm not worried it's going to shake my faith. I just hate not knowing what to expect. But for this particular occasion, that's okay with me. I'm slightly nerved, but fine. I'm not going to think we're crazy colt freaks. I know that anything that is a priesthood ordinance is right and has it's meanings no matter how weird it is. If you think about it, baptism is weird. So it taking the sacrament. Or praying. But we know it's all true. I know there is a lot to take in. I know it's different. I know I'm not going to understand things right off. I don't care. I'm still excited.

I didn't mean to start a tangent here, but this blog is kind of a venting place and there is something I need to vent about and I was thinking about it while writing the previous paragraph. I'm about to enter the next chapter of my life. I'm getting married. This will be the best time of my life. So what's bothering me is, I wish people would let me enjoy it. Let me explain. I know people are just either making conversation or trying to offer advice or whatever when they do what I'm about to explain, but it's still annoying. What's bugging me is the "I've already done it so let me help you out and tell you how it's going to be" mentality. Now, I DO NOT want to step on any toes here, so whoever is reading this, please don't take offense. This isn't about any one particular person or instance. It's just a build up of stuff. I feel like I cant even talk about wedding stuff without people giving me their 2 cents. I appreciate the advice but listen to me: EVERY SINGLE PERSON IS DIFFERENT! Just because something happened one way with you, DOES NOT mean it will be the same with me. I know marriage is a challenge. But just because you and your husband/wife fought during the first month of marriage doesn't mean I will with Cory. It's going to be an adventure and I want to figure this out on my own and experience it MY way. I don't want to be thinking something is wrong with us just because it happened in a different way with some other couple. It's going to be uniquely Megan and Cory. Period. And another thing, sex between Cory and I will be sacred and private and I'd really appreciate no more jokes/advice/whatever about it.

Wow, sorry I didn't meant to sound so angry. I'm just ready to experience life for myself, not have people tell me how it's going to be. I hope that makes sense.

Anyway, I think that's all I'd better say for now.


Before I Sleep

I was just having some thoughts that I wanted to get out. I understand no ones perfect and we all make mistakes. Some of us really stumble and loose our way. But it makes me so sad to see people giving up what they believe in. It really does break my heart to see people who were raised in the church and should know better, throw their lives away to the things they know are wrong. People who once had such strong testimonies and the light of Christ in their eyes. It's so hard to see. I cant imagine how the Lord feels watching his children make choices that wont let Him hold them again. It makes me emotional and hurt inside. I wish people would be willing to stand up for their beliefs and convictions. Like I said, well all make mistakes. It's the ones who give up or willingly decide to abandon the one thing that can bring joy to their lives that make me so sad.


The Weekend

It's been an interesting weekend I must say. First lets start with Friday.

I realized I have no control over my emotions. Friday was the last day of school. I handed out the class's wedding invitations on Thursday and first thing in the morning I had about 10 kids come up to me all excited because they could come! I'm SO excited to see them!! Then Zach, this sweet, adorable boy handed me a picture he drew for me. It was the picture on our wedding invitation. Let's compare the two.

It was one of the best things I've ever gotten. And it made me start crying right away. The day went okay though. I cried when they showed the year end video during the assembly. Then we signed year books and then we went outside for carpool and send everyone off for the summer. I was doing okay at this point. I had tears in my eyes, but I hadn't "cried" yet. Well then Seth, another one of my kids came up and hugged me goodbye and then said "I'm really glad you were my teacher this year." I lost it. It was pretty hard for me. I know I'll see them next year, but it was just hard to say goodbye. I know, I'm a wimp.
Well then Friday night Cory, our friend Nate, and I went up above the B to go camping. It was a lot of fun. I needed a little getaway like that, even though it was just overnight and I was with 2 boys lol. Nah, I'm kidding I love hanging out with them. It was a lot of fun.
Then Saturday was Cory's first ever family reunion. It was kind of weird because I still feel uneasy around his family. It's not their fault, it's mine. I just have a really hard time getting to know people sometimes. And Cory tends to ignore me when we get with his family which makes it that much harder to have a good time. I feel very much like a fish out of water. I hope that goes away after a little while and I can feel more comfortable with who I am. I don't know why I get that way, but I get SUPER paranoid people aren't going to like me. Especially when they don't talk to me right off. I'm weird.
Today is Sunday and there are more family activities going with the reunion but I don't think I'm going to go. Most of it involves food and it's fast Sunday. And I start temple prep today so I'm not going to miss church either. That, and I miss my family. I feel like I haven't been home in weeks. So I'll just hang here today. I've gotta say, I'm really excited to go to the temple. I know it will be a major blessing in my life.