So I know I've been a major downer lately. I'm sorry, life has just been crazy. But last night I got some much needed relief. I was getting overwhelmed like I do every night again. So I got down on my knee's and pleaded for some strength and some help. I told the Lord I HAD to feel his love for me. I had to feel some kind of peace because I know Satan is working overtime to make me miserable. I told him I needed some protection from him so I could think straight. Well, I got what I needed. I felt so peaceful. I seriously felt like everything was just lifted off my shoulders.
I've been so stressed I haven't even been excited to get married. I'm happy to say the excitement is back again. I had so many worries and today I just feel at peace. I'm so grateful that the Lord heard and answered my prayer and gave me what I needed. I cant even tell how crushed by Satan's influence I felt last night. I was so upset I couldn't breathe. He has been putting so many thoughts and worries in my head. And I've noticed he's been adding more and more on. Last night I felt unworthy to go to the Temple, which is ridiculous! It's amazing how he works - he really is good at what he does, which is why it's so important to rely on the Lord. I'm so grateful the Lord helped me get rid of those stupid thoughts and worries. I read my patriarchal blessing again and it had a different meaning for me. I just felt so much love and peace while reading it. It was something I've been needing for a long time now. I cant put into words how grateful I am for the Lord and His amazing gospel. I'm so glad I'm a part of it. So, things are getting a little better. I feel much less stressed and I think today I might actually feel happy!! haha. Anyway, it was awesome and I'm so glad I was helped.